I know I’ve written about Mr Perfect before. and yes, at that time, the perfectness that I see is mainly human. and I realized that things can easily be changed once God says so.

Now I met another Mr Perfect. and his perfection is from God. He can guide me dirrectly to God.

Up to now, I still havent found his flaws. or still (just like the first part of Mr Perfect), his perfectness is his flaw.

One thing for sure…. God had sent him to cheer me up, lift me off my burden and color part of my life. (only God knows for how long…)

I’m Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I’ve Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It’ll All Turn Out
You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Mmmmm ….

I Might Have To Wait
I’ll Never Give Up
I Guess It’s Half Timing
And The Other Half’s Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It’s Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ……

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I’ll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

They Say All’s Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won’t Need To Fight It
We’ll Get It Right
And We’ll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm …..

And Someday I Know It’ll All Turn Out
And I’ll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I’ll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It’ll All Turn Out
And You’ll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet
Love Love Love …..
I Just Haven’t Met You Yet

Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?

Are you a guard in prison maximum security?

Do you stay home all the time beacuse you want me to yourself?

Or do you stay locked away in fear I’ll find someone else?

Is this a relationship
Forfilling your needs as well as mine?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you?
Or is this just my sentence
Am I doin time?
Is this love real real love
Then stayin lowdown
But if im just love perisoner
Then im bustin out

Boy you auta be ashamed of yourself
What the hell do you think your doing
Lovin me, lovin me so wrong
Baby all I do is try
To show you that your mine
One and only guy
No matter who may come along
Open your eyes cause baby I don’t like

Well I don’t like
Livin under your spotlight

Just because you think I might
Find sombody worthy

I don’t like
And I don’t
Livin under your spotlight

Maybe if you treat me right

You won’t have to worry

Dear God,

Thank you so much, once again You showed me your greatness… You have the power to create, nurture, destroy everything in this world. Sometimes we don’t understand Your plan. We are sad or angry because You’ve made us hurt.

When I was planning for my wedding I encountered several difficulties. Sometimes I was wondering why things were so complicated. But I know those were Your plan. When things get rough and I had tears in my eyes, I cannot accept that You are behind it. Why would you set me in such misery?

Now that I discovered the truth…. I understand that all of those things happened for a reason. and the reason is You. You will never let me down. You know what I need and when I need them. I believe in Your plan.

I dont need to marry someone who doesnt care about me. He cares for my money only. I know You will send me a better man, someone who can accept me for who I am. (not trying to change me into someone I am not) And cares for me without conditions.

duuh kenapa sih masalah harus itu2 lagi??? kaya kaset rusak aja.

emang ga ada masalah laen apa? ber bulan2 masalahnya itu terus…. sebeeeeelllll…..

kl gue udah stress, gue udah nangis kesannya semua udah ok. tapi balik2 gitu lagi gitu lagi…. capeeeee deeeehhhh….

gue gak tau bs bertahan berapa lama lagi…… huaaaaaa (

I know that financial issue is very delicate. But I never realize before that it would come up to this point.

The first time I encounter this problem was when the marriage plan was started. The whole financial thing was not a huge issue for my partner, but it is to me. I think it has something to do with the principle… hehe

My principle is not something I come up with. but based on my religion. before we can get married, we should attend this marriage preparation course. in that course, we were taught to have a single account for all the expenses and the wife should be the financial planner. Of course, it can be replaced if the wife is not capable to do financial planning.

The problem that we encounter ever since that my partner refuse the method. he prefers to have his own money (for things he wants to buy without my consent). I think it is against the “single account for all expenses” thing.

We haven’t deal on this matter yet. I hope God will help me.

Some things are too beautiful to be expressed in words

Marriage intimacy designed by God is one of those things

The author of romance is always the One holding the pen when dreams come true

What is the main element of a home?

A family….

Yup, I think no matter how huge, how expensive, how beautiful a house is, without the main element…. would feel empty and useless. On the other hand, when you have a great family bond inside a house, then the house would feel homey.

I am looking for a house now, but I think I prefer a home rather than a house. The building itself can be in any forms, but the main element must remain in it.

I don’t want to live in a huge house alone, or even worse I might not have the time to spend in the huge house because I would be too busy working up my ass up and down trying to pay the mortgage.

I know everyone loves seeing a nice big house with classic/minimalist style especially if it is located in a public-seeing area. But beyond that… do you really need all that attention? Do you really need that pride?

who says being single sucks? Just like the title above, I think being single is just fantastic. There are some things you can do ONLY when you are single.

It doesn’t mean that I prefer to be single…. There are pros and cons to which is preferable. I will create another post on that one.

But now, let’s talk about being single and the advantages. When you are single, you are free to date any types of male – no strings attached. If you dont like how he eats, or how he drives, or any other annoying habits, you can dump him the next time he asks you out. If he insults you in any kind of words -whether he meant to or not- you can yell at him or just dump him and save the trouble.

When you are single you have 24 x 7 to spend by yourself. you can use that time to work, to have fun, or just sleeping in your cozy bed. you can organize your time by yourself, making plans and all without worrying other people conflict of interest.

when you are single, you can splurge yourself. buy expensive things you dont need – just to prove to the world that you can afford it, eat steak (or any other food) every weekend, hang out in expensive cafe just to kill time, talk with your girl friends about guys and guys and guys until you fed up, watch chich movies till you cry, spa once in a while.

How about the downside? obviously you dont have someone to talk to in good times and bad times. (your girls only for good times… in bad times, only true friends stay. but bf will stay throughout all times). You also feel lonely sometimes when you see couples.
And obviously it would be difficult for you to have a child (or children).

so… which one do you prefer?

If you are looking to save your marriage then here are some tips to help you communicate with your partner. Arm yourself with four “tools”: time, an understanding attitude, patience, and empathy.

Steps

1. Schedule some time to be spent only with your partner everyday to maintain a strong bond.

2. Give complete attention to your partner, whether chatting or resolving an issue.

3. Listen to your partner without any interruptions. Maintain eye contact and keep an open mind. Grasp the expressed feelings along with the words. Facial expressions, tone of voice, body language, and words – all of these matter.

4. Make a careful choice of words while communicating to avoid any misunderstandings.

5. Don’t get carried away with emotions while communicating.

6. Instead of blowing your lid off in front of your partner, vent your anger on a piece of paper. Sometimes, we do regret later what we had said in a fit of anger.

7. Keep the positive aspects in the spot light rather than the negative ones.

8. You don’t like a particular habit of your partner, for example, throwing a wet towel on the bed. Don’t start with “I hate it when you…” instead, say, “I really like it when I see you hanging your towel on towel-stand!”

9. If you don’t like a particular dress on your partner, instead of saying, “you look fat/bad in this dress”, say, “why don’t you wear the ‘so and so’ dress? It looks sexier on you than this one!”

10. It is said – the best way to win an argument is to avoid it. How true! When you feel the discussion is getting heated up, withdraw.

11. Shouting, screaming, crying are the worst ways of communicating your feelings. They only leave your partner feeling hurt, confused, or even a failure.

12. Never dig out past conflicts, no matter how tempted you are.

13. Don’t hesitate in saying “I am sorry.” These are the wonder words that make your partner lose all anger. In fact, it leaves no room for further debate.

14. Stop blaming each other. If you think, “I can save my marriage by putting all the blame on my partner”, you are harboring an absurd idea in your mind.

Tips

* Taunting, scorning, commenting, and teasing are not the right ways to save a marriage. There are many people who hurl verbal abuses at their partner and when their partner retaliates with a divorce paper in hand, they cry, “save my marriage!” First learn to respect your partner and treat him/her as you would want to be treated yourself.