2009 Resolution

Now is almost the end of November 2009. That means I only have another month to fulfill my 2009 resolution. Let’s review them now:

1. Get married

I almost got this one done…. but things just didn’t work out between us, and I don’t see why I need to get married to the wrong guy for the sake of my resolution. (and then feel misserable for the rest of my life)

2. Salary above ***

I don’t move to another company or get any promotion this year. (all in the sake of love… hahaha…) I had another offer which if I took it, then this point will be done. but at that time, my priority in life changes.

3. Reduce Weight

Finally…. something I managed to accomplish. so far I lost more than enough. I’m not sure how… maybe the stress or the food or the will.. hehe

4. Start building my own business

Hmm… like I said my priority in life has changed. I dont want to fulfill this one anymore. I’m not sure why I put it last year.

Hmm… let’s see the result. 1 out of 4 is not a good one. I don’t know why I fail reaching my own resolution for this year. I need to focus more next time to achieve it. (can I achieve it in 1 month?)

I’m in the progress of planning my 2010 resolution.

Mr Perfect’s flaws

I told you before that nobody is perfect. And it is true…

Yesterday I had a really really hard and serious conversation with Mr Perfect. I was telling him about my failure wedding plan. I figured since I wanted to start a serious relationship, he need to know all about it.

He listened attentively and responded calmly. no biggies there. But then it was his turn. His story is far more shocking than mine.

Here we go…..

His past relationship was going too far, and he had almost had a child from her. She was pregnant in 2006, and that was why they were going to get married. [ooh... as much as I wanted to look cool on the surface, but deep inside it was really really hard to deal with]. But they lost the baby on the first trimester. and they kept on quarelling after that.  the next half year they were still together and seeing counseling for their problem. But it still didnt work out. they broke up mid 2007, leaving him with a big wound in his heart. the scar remained for the next year, so he was traumatized to start a new relationship with another girl.

That was his turning point. He decided to change himself and follow Jesus. He started to go to morning mass daily, join the Praise and Worship, read the Bible everyday.

ok so both of us had scars in our heart. and we were not planning to have one again. so we really wanted to make this one to work out. we realized that it needs 2 persons to fight for a relationship together. not just 1.

Surrender yourself to God

“Aku ini hamba Tuhan, terjadilah padaku menurut perkataan Mu.”

During my pray this afternoon I came across these words. These are the words used by Mother Marry right after God told her that she will be pregnant with His child.

I know in this modern world, sometimes it is difficult to do as God says. We always think about what other people would think. And YES it matters for us nowadays. We don’t think what God would think about us, instead worrying about other people too much.

I need to surrender myself to God more often now.